All that is going through my mind is SEATING PLAN. Will it get done? Of course, it has to. When my fiance reassured me about getting it done together, and that it will be no problem, which it probably will not be, what did I do? I continued to plan for when we can do it and how we will do it. I had to cut myself off and tell myself, this is not something you should lose sleep over. This is one task that can be done in a few hours (or less). No problem, my mind was eased thanks to a patient partner and some self-talk. Off to the cafe I went to use the internet to do some emailing, catching up, the usual. About an hour at the cafe, I had not touched my drink and was knee deep into crunching numbers for the seating plan. Seriously though, what is wrong with me? I came to the conclusion that it has nothing to do with the seating plan, it has all to do with myself thinking that its 2 weeks before the wedding and I SHOULD be busy doing things. But, I realize, that could it be that we are organized and we have some time to complete things. While my fiance is out on the road with some friends for another wedding, my mind is racing thinking I need to be compensating for us not being able to work on things together the past few weeks. Why do I feel I need to take on things alone for something that involves two people equally? Because I am miss independent and I like to be in control. Time let up on that control, not just for wedding planning but for our new partnership. I started chatting with him on the computer and he kindly allowed me to make somewhat of a schedule for when he returns and we hit the road for our own wedding. I felt better seeing that there was a PLAN in front of me and was able to give up some of my control over this. I packed up and went home and spent the rest of the day with me.
No comments:
Post a Comment